Saturday, April 3, 2010

Sleep-Shmeep, also titled: Sleep is Highly Overrated

One night earlier in the week I was up late.
In fact, I had actually climbed into bed early for a change,
and the baby cried.
And cried.
It was a night in which a distressed toddler woke in need of post-midnight hugs.
It was a night in which an older child slept hard and didn't make it to the toilet.

The crying baby required a bit of walking (on my part) while being cradled in my arms, so through a dark I house I walked, and landed myself on the porch.

Have you ever stood under Wisteria on a warm moonlit night?

I discovered something:

Quieting a bundle of baby where the sweet scent of Wisteria tickles ones senses may be one of life's pleasantest apologies.

Not that life has anything to apologize to me for, it's just that moonlight and Wisteria almost make up for being waked three times (plus several nursings) after midnight.

You know, I realize that getting up in the night is part of my job description.  And I also realize that my getting up is related to normal child-hood inconveniences and not under duress of a terminally ill baby.
That is much to be thankful for.
My getting up in the night is because my husband is sleeping soundly, resting his body for another day of work where he will once again provide for his family's needs, not because I have no husband.
My getting up in the night is a labor of love.  An opportunity to die to self, and to bless my little ones; to bless my tired husband.

I am used to very little sleep by now.  One day it will be a shock when I sleep those hours in uninterrupted segments.
Unfortunately when those days come, I won't have such a precious reason to stand on the porch in the moonlight breathing the soft scents of Wisteria.
That's rather a sad reflection.

So on second thought;

Dear Life,

I am a very content woman.
No need to apologize.

...Unless you want to give me moonlight and Wisteria.

That I'll gladly accept!



Grace McHugh said...

Thank you for the reminder. It has been a long time since I have sat quietly rocking a baby in the wee small hours of the night. I think having wisteria would make it wonderful. :) And we are so blessed to have husbands that provide for us to stay home with our little blessings.

Lauren said...

Thank you for this!!! I've really been having a rough time with a 6-month-old waking to nurse 4-5 times a night, and going on about 3-4 hours of sleep. It's been tough, but I've been encouraged by your post! Thanks!!!

Corrie said...

I have your blog on my reader and although I do not get to visit often, as I am chasing little ones most days (and some nights). I needed this reminder to thank instead of complain. The sleepless nights have tended to shift my perspective to the "poor me" view. I'm coming around though and, like you, opening my eyes to how much I have been blessed. Thank you for posting this!