Tuesday, February 17, 2009

I Feel Like A Foreigner...

This is not the hard life. I don't know why it feels so hard tonight.
Emotional, yes. Still sick, yes. But tonight I miss something.
I miss my husband.
I also really miss my mom.
But what I think I am missing the most, is the home I was created for.
The one where Jesus lives.
That's what I'm missing.

Tonight I feel it in my heart, in my stomach, in my aches, in my emotions...
I don't belong here. I mean, this earth has it's real nice moments, but it's not the same.
You know? I've never been to that home I miss, yet I feel like I know it! How else could I be missing it? Don't you have to know something to miss it? At least have it planted in the deepest longings of your heart?

I'm glad for the missing. As painful as it is, it reminds me that this place is not my permanent home, and I'm bound for someplace worth living forever!

Please pray for the Adamis family and baby Mia Amore. All my heart goes out to them in these difficult days, and possibly the days to come.


2homeschool said...

I think what your missing is the comforter himself. Not so much the place he lives.


I love you and wish I were there for you.

I leave tomorrow to go to Sac. My sis is coming from D.C. All prayers appreciated. The weather is nasty (well, ok its nasty for here).

Already praying for Mia, will pray somemore.

Prayers for you too.

Lots of love,

John 16:7
'Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.'

Ps. Ok so, this is the verse I picked out that was supose to be a comfort in it's self. Then I realized that if you put it together with what I said above, you might think I was trying to say you had no Holy Spirit. THAT IS SOOOO NOT WHAT I MENT.

The verse is supose to remind you that though we all long to go home to the Lord, Jesus left us someone to comfort us, even when our bestest of friends can not be there.

Love lots,

Momma Bug said...

Thank you Heather.
That's just what I needed to hear.
I love you.
I miss you too:-)

2homeschool said...

wow, those hearts are cute... cool... awsome dude...whatever the current fraze is. ;-)

Mommy Reg said...

Hey, I love you and was thinking about you. Actually yesterday, I was getting ice cream and thought about the first time I met you at Katie's house just after Rosie was born. But, I was at Raley's not Safeway and I got cookies and cream ice cream but I still thought about you and smiled. :)

Momma Bug said...

Mommy Reg, Thank you for thinking of me:-) I remember meeting you at Katie's too - your (big) little first-born guy! I remember how much he filled up that baby carrier!!! ;-)

I sure appreciate your friendship, even at this distance. It will be good to spend more time together one day - even if it's at "home" :-)
There ought to be plenty of time to catch up then!

I hope you enjoyed your cookies and cream!