Well you thought I was back.... but I'm not. (not exactly, fully, and completely back.)
It's not that I'm too worn out from the weekend company. It's not that I have nothing to blog about. There are a number of things that "it's not".
While today went well and had some delightfully fun moments, tonight at quarter to eleven I am in a slump of defeat. I think it's more of an emotional thing, and very likely there is a spiritual battle taking place.
I don't know how much schedule to conform to. I don't know how lax to be. I can't figure out when to train, and when to toss all care to the wind. I don't know how to fit "it" all in. "It" is just TOO MUCH! There is house up-keep, meals, baths, shopping, school, play, things to get done for my dear husband.
I think I need some sleep... blessed sleep! That might make everything look brighter...
If only I drank coffee coffee... ...maybe I should start :-} Common, tell me again... It's not by my might or by my power, but only by the super-natural power of the Holy Spirit who indwells me (ME, adopted as a daughter of God and loved by HIM!) that I can do any of that "it"!! I am washed perfectly and spotlessly clean by my Jesus's blood. Do you know? HE SEES ME AS PERFECT! There is no defeat - the battle is already won. I and my Lord are the victors! Arise! Worship HIM! Count not what man values, but will to look for an eternal reward. (I'm giving myself a pep-talk here)
I think I'm getting my head above the tossing waves and am taking the air in gulps...
I'm going to be okay now, And if I can get to dry land, I'll post something more up-beat ;-)
When I thought of being a mom, I never dreamed of THIS! ~Five heart melting smiles ~never getting tired of midnight feedings ~having all the answers ~not minding dirty faces ~enjoying watching the boys eat! ~falling in love with pigtails ~appreciating overalls ~appreciating a washing machine! ~wanting to do everything better ~falling in love a million times